Why is it when you think you have things figured out you don't and when you try to figured them out you just end up more screw up then what you were before. Why does it have to be hard in finding peace with in yourself. Sometimes I think I'm more lost then the average lost person. I wish I could go to India and find a budapest type person the ones who help you find the real you deep beneath all the crap that is drowning you. I feel Im living someone else's life a fife of nothing and I know I was meant for more. I'm in there some where waitting to get out and let loose. I cam feel myself..I can hear myself..but do I know what Iam suppose to do no..I'm stuck and if I don't do something I'm going to drown in my own sadness. I'm meant to do something I'm meat to be someone.